Today I did not do well with my recitation.
It was just under 3 minutes to dismissal when the professor called my name.
I did not get the question.
I did not get a passing grade.
Recitation means a lot.
I swore out loud, possibly within earshot of the professor.
I punched the table and the arm of a friend, and generally had for at least an hour what counts as a hissy fit for me.
Also, first day of my period, which means moodiness and overall unreasonableness.
Have not done anything productive within the four hours since I got home because I'm still upset.
Only now am I feeling some semblance of shame.

*exploding to the side, brb*

Yep. Still editing the paper. This is why I hate group work - more than enough manpower, not enough contributions. *dramatic sigh*

Sign That My Mother Does Not Spend Much Time on the Internet: She wants to pick a fight over a comment she strongly disagrees with. On Youtube, of all places. She means well, but there will always be idiots on the Web. It's a fact of e-life. I wonder what kind of e-person she'd be if she ever came across a troll.

Hee, Mom. *hugs her secretly*

Now that I've completed my contribution to the group paper, I should be able to work on those messages I've been meaning to send, barring any edits or additional research. My Correspondence!Fail is fail-y.

Am going to divide the entry into sections so you won't needlessly suffer my rambling.

( General things. )


( Law-related things. )

( Fannish things. Will try to keep it spoiler-free. )

Not dead yet, just been tired and ridiculously busy. I'm really sorry for my lack of correspondence (I've kinda sucked at the whole "keeping in touch" thing since forever, so believe me when I say "it's not you, it's me"...). Sorry, too, for not establishing contact with minna-san after Ondoy (especially with my fellow Pinoys on the f-list and you, shadowwaker).

Since approximately 99.9% of my first semester at law's done (still need to work on a paper due on or before the start of the next semester wtf scheduling), I intend on remedying the lack of contact within the next few days, so expect an email or a short LJ message from me soon, you guys. And then prepare for some Law and Fannish-related ramblings.

For now, going to catch up on sleep. I can even use my actual bed now, since I don't really have a set time to wake up to and thus do not have the need for less comfortable sleep. Yay.

It's acting up again - complete with little flashbacks (forwards?), even - and it's telling me that I should prepare for something akin to a beatdown for our report today.

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Damn it.

Small comfort in being forewarned.

I hate the fact that I can be distracted by fic.
I hate the fact that I have a constant itch to read fic.
I hate the fact that I constantly satisfy said itch.
I hate the fact that I can't go through an entire reading without letting my mind wander.
I hate the fact that I can spend more time imagining rather than studying.
I hate the fact that I'm already getting tired of studying.
I hate the fact that I would rather be roleplaying or writing or reading fiction (WTF self).

I hate cases with taxes and computations and purple prose and commentable length. Especially those from the 90's onwards.
I hate accepting more work without thinking of whether I can handle the load.
I hate constantly putting off work and panicking over it later.
I hate pointless verbatim memorization, especially if it has nothing to do with the laws.

Lots of hate, but I'm not quitting. I chose to do this, and I'm going to stand by it, dammit.

Is it just me, or are the cats really enjoying themselves this time of year? Or maybe all the caterwauling is just getting to me.

Not that there haven't been any distractions before, but the mental image of two cats going at it (though supposedly, the caterwauling is just the courting phase) is not conducive to study.

Damn Pixar, how in the world do your movies get cuter and cuter each year?! The animated short was particularly adorable. And that really really nice thing you did for that sick little girl didn't hurt your movie any.

But aaaahhhhhh, Up! Carl! Ellie! Dug! The symbolisms! The foils! I almost cried while watching, and it wasn't because my midterms are finally over. Definitely adding this movie to my collection.

At 2:18 - because ripping something off the Internet is cheaper than acquiring rights or fighting off lawsuits..

Did they need filler that badly? Ah well, at least they used something awesome.

*shakes head in amusement*

For someone who's being trained to pay attention to detail, I KINDA SUCK AT IT. Missing the bigger, more important things, like what the subject matter is, or your professor's name, or remembering to at least ask your friend if she'd like copies of the cases.... yeah, not a good sign. I'm undecided if it's because I'm just that narrow-minded, or I don't give much of a damn, or both.

Also, I think I take myself far too seriously. I'm not sure because how exactly can anyone tell if they're taking themselves too seriously or lightly, anyway?

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Because sometimes I'm a 12 year old kid. I just enjoy watching the mental movie of someone getting blown up while on the can.

A was using his outhouse/comfort room, which is obviously not inside his house and not attached or annexed to it, and is some distance away from the house. Unfortunately, while answering the call of nature, he was killed when his outhouse/comfort room was blown up by B.

Ignoring murder by means of explosion and/or use of explosives, can the aggravating circumstance of dwelling be appreciated?

I have SEETHING ANGER and ANNOYANCE for the number of people who did not contribute what they were supposed to contribute. 4 people should not be made to do the work of 12.

Also, extra research is not encapsulated in EDITING AND PROOFREADING. At least, it shouldn't, if certain people had been more competent or responsible.

Just saying.

Only now do I realize the meaning and impact of the "snowball effect".

*flees the giant snowball of work*

Time is seriously, 24-k gold.

Former president Cory Aquino was finally laid to rest yesterday. The Filipino people were there to send her to the Palace, and they were also there to send her off into the afterlife. It's both remarkable and pitiable that there we may never see another person as strong and gracious as her, but it was undoubtedly an honor to have had her with us. Goodbye, Ma'am.

Is it bad that I can't work because I'm too busy picking at the inanities of an overheard conversation? I can tune them out, but there's this little voice in my head that's making fun of and sniping at certain aspects of it.

While I'm very grateful for the extra help/research, receiving a 161-page report on the day of the report is not quite what I had in mind. I have no time to go over the whole thing, as I'm busy trying to fix the rest of the paper. Do submit an overview, or perhaps highlight the more pertinent sections, next time.

Also, I miss roleplaying. Or reading that fanfic I've been reading, which hasn't been updated in three weeks for the likely reason that the author's laptop gave. Listening to X attack/murder/steal/rape/marry/divorce/sue Y only gets me so far.

I wish I could talk with my sister without the conversation devolving into something like -

"Why did I even bother talking to you, you don't understand my pain!" *talk to the hand*
"Shut up and stop overacting! Go away!" *refrains from butterknife stabbination*

or -

"I hate this ^%^#@## house! I hate my ^%^#@## parents! I hate my ^%^#@## life! I wish I were an only child!" *victimvictimvictimwangstwangstwangst*
"Stop being emo!" *token rant about relative blessedness and wanting the emo to stop, kthnx*

I keep telling myself to be more patient and understanding, because it's a teenager thing and hey haven't we all been through this before, but goddamn... Puberty was annoying. Teenaged Me was annoying (though remarkably, I never got my brother to punch me during a fight even if I tried to goad him into it). This is why I may never teach in high school.

Yes. I do believe I shall text my groupmates now. Am getting just a bit antsy with the Magna Carta paper.

Had Green Tea Frappucino today. It was a nice shade of green, and it tasted pretty good, even if it was a bit hefty on the wallet. Apparently does not have enough coffee to keep me awake all throughout the night, which means it contains a negligible amount of the caffeine. Will probably have it again next year / time I return to Starbucks.

LOL JP and her headache-inducing anghet mishap. Hope you sit next to a more hygienic person next time, eh?

Got more work on the Magna Carta paper done. Just realized that, after spending two hours typing, I didn't have to retype everything and could have asked one of the other dudes to upload their soft copies. D'OH. Still have a lot of things to read.

I hope next term Fridays are free, too. I like the idea of having a full day to myself.

YAY DEAD FANTASY 3-5. Ah, Tifa, you insanely bad-ass woman. You don't need a crapful of materia to kick serious ass. But hats off to Hitomi, who doesn't need materia at all. In hindsight, having that guy find Yuna instead of who he was looking for balances things out. His off-modelness takes getting used to, though. Guess 6-8 or 9 come out next year. What shall I have to tide me over until then (law aside)?

Time is valuable.

Expect the unexpected.

There are many things that could go wrong.

Compulsive page refreshing won't compel the page to update.

Be nice to people.

Hobbies and frivolities are like sand in a jar full of golf balls - there'll always be room for them, so worry about the golf balls first.

Correspondence and normal human conversation are good.

I should stop wasting my time. >.< But I'm still kinda high on my new layouts :3

Hey Felizia, seen Advent Children Complete yet?

- Juggling case digesting, studying and translating Spanish cases
- Totally not letting her first ever boot out of the classroom get to her, since it was mostly her fault in the first place (but it wasn't all bad, because she might have gained extra "balls" points with her classmates for doing what she did anyway)
- Hoping to catch up with the lessons sooner or later
- Wondering what the S20 dinner last Saturday was like (riisha, buhay pa pala ang S20 o.o)
- But not wondering what cocktails / "lady drinks" are like - they're delicious in very small, non-binge amounts ^_^
- Is starting to forget what TV watching is like
- Not hating the newspapers so much anymore

Due to a short series of unfortunately timed events (HD crapping out, relatively low-tech emergency archiving, new set-up, family gatherings one could not excuse herself from), my "free week" (suspension due to AH1N1 positive law student at Mendiola and shared faculty with aforementioned school) was eaten up and NOW I HAVE NO TIME TO CATCH UP. DAMNED IT. Even if I stay up late, nothing's sticking to my mind. It doesn't help that one of our profs decided to be extra-nice and assigned us an extra five cases (as if we didn't have to worry about the first four) the night before her classes. Not to mention the two or three cases we may or may not be tackling for the subject right before hers.

........ HATE. HATEHATEHATEHATEHATE.

At least now, I've got an excuse for not showing myself to "unavoidable" family gatherings. I think I've met my exposure quota this month. And the new hard disk is up to scratch, which sort of makes up for the THREE FREAKING DAYS OF WINZIP-ONLY ARCHIVING SEVERAL HUNDRED THOUSANDS OF FILES, WHICH IS NEITHER FUN NOR VERY PRODUCTIVE, YO. *kicks the old capacitor*

We can't even go kill ourselves because the number of missing people might constitute a boycott. (Seriously) The chances of me getting kicked out of the classroom today are probably pretty high. At least I'd get a little more sleep that way, and refresh myself for that other subject tomorrow.

>.< ADMBROWH8YHOIRYHOIRY04NBJSNHAJHDGAHGDJKADHGRYGRGRRGRGRRGLDHGLAHGLADHGLADHGLADGLKADHGDAHG. I may or may not hate our professor a little right now.

I'm tired and starting to be incoherent. Fuck this shit. I'm gonna go read the shortest new case and stick to the first four she assigned. Newer four cases and their ridiculously long texts be fucking damned. I hope I don't burst into tears or something late.

*goes to break something on the side*

Just ended the first week of law school. What's it like?

Three words: BOOKS. XEROXING. OMG.

A hell of a lot of all three. I think I've figured out a way to parse my daily schedule to accommodate everything I need to do (i.e. meals, chores, studying), which involves going to school an hour and a half early. It doesn't sound all that nutty, but for the facts that the school is no more than a three to five minute drive from home, and that traffic is insane right around class time. Also, sleeping for no more than six hours, no later than 12:30 PM, and getting up no later than 7. Evenings (end of classes) are, for the moment, reserved for mindless research, catching up with the news, and maybe a little bit of extra reading.

Of course, since it's only been our first week and we haven't even met all our profs yet, that might change. What won't change will be the significant decrease in free time and increase in motivating myself to read (but a break every three to four hours' worth of reading is good, because I won't absorb anything useful after I hit that mark). That means stuff like correspondence (I owe a friend an email, which I fear I may never send at this rate), Net surfing and other frivolities will have to be kept to a minimum. Family-related visits may or may not be curtailed.

I've got no problem with the restrictions, though I worry about concentrating for long periods of time because after a certain amount of time spent thinking seriously I tend to wander off.

GAH.

Ah yes, and the vid recs...

These are some of the most awesome things I've ever seen in my life, as well as some of the best I've ever managed to stumble upon. They're part of a 5 or 6-part Square-Enix x Tecmo fighting series called "Dead Fantasy". (And NO HENTAI AT ALL, despite what you might think - ISN'T IT GREAT!!!) Only the first two are complete, but you can already find fan-recorded previews of the next three.

I may or may not have watched these multiple times, some with the intention of giving myself a short break (since these vids are mindless, glorious fun I TELL YOU YES I WANT TO SQUEE ABOUT THESE WITH SOMEONE I ACTUALLY KNOW). I sincerely hope you enjoy these two - if not the badassness of your favorite characters, then for the sheer mind-blowing amount of work and detail that went into them. You probably only need to have heard of them to appreciate this (I only really know one character here), but those familiar with the games may find the extra details the creator put in very interesting.

Do keep in mind that, since these are fan-made, some characters may be a bit off-model (but still wicked awesome!!!!). Tried to embed these, but the second one always came out weird.

Dead Fantasy 1 - All-Girl Fighting, 100% Hentai-Free!

Dead Fantasy 2 - now with more action (and people)!

Nothing like 3D video-game fight scenes to relax the tired mind. ^_^